
i'm thinking about where i was one year ago, and how i was counting down the days until my whole world would crash. 6 days. i remember crying and savoring every moment and not wanting the days to pass, and i will never forget the ache of missing the person i loved most and how two years seemed like an eternity. looking back on those emotions, they still feel so raw and i can recall the exact emotions i felt...utterly alone and helpless to turn back the clock.
and isn't it funny how i can never fake a smile?
i wear my heart on my sleeve. always have.
any stranger could have seen i was crying inside.
last year, i would have never predicted myself being here now.
last year, i expected to still be waiting for my missionary to come home now.
it's just so strange to me that my predictions are always completely off.
i think i know myself so well, but do i really?
who am i to say i know what's best for me?
i'm starting to come to grips with reality and i'm starting to give up on planning my future.
take me one day at a time.
that is all i can handle.
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