miss emma.

i had a really sucky day because all the customers at nordstrom are just grinches and really not in the christmas spirit and they all get angry that we don't carry xl or we don't have time to gift wrap their purchase. 9 hours of that is exhausting and frustrating and all i want to do is make these strangers happy, i genuinely care about finding the one last burgundy pea coat or making sure alterations hems their jeans to perfection, but despite my efforts it just doesn't work sometimes. i remember last christmas, i did a puzzle with my grandma. i hate puzzles. no matter how much i want to finish the stupid thing, i just can't. but my grandma is ever-so-patient and carefully selects each piece, as i desperately try to fit them together in a hurry. i push and bend the cardboard and even if they aren't meant to fit together, i try. i was thinking about that on my drive home tonight. how in my life, i push the pieces and bend them and get frustrated when they don't belong together, instead of just patiently waiting to find the right match. 

i can't wait until new years so i can set my new years resolutions. that is going to be one of them.

to let things unravel in time. 

to live in the moment, instead of panicking about the future.

to enjoy the puzzle.